Can my faith be permanently damaged by my actions years ago?

Years ago when I was in college, i went out with someone who was not a Christian. He thought i blindly accepted my faith, and said I needed to question more rather than just accept. So, I started questioning, which turned to doubt, which distanced me from the Lord tremendously.  

Well, it is 20 years later and I am no longer with him. But that short relationship damaged my faith and now I live with that doubt every day. I know "faith comes through hearing, and hearing from the Word of God." I read the Word everyday, but my faith is still not there. I've asked God for forgiveness, but it feels like he's no longer with me. 

Can I have permanently wrecked my relationship with God because of what I did in college? It's breaking my heart and scaring me, too.

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