Even though I’m mad, should I give?

I recently had a miscarriage earlier this year. My very first pregnancy and I lost it. Losing my baby was the worst experience I’ve ever been through. Feeling so low, I called my closest friend and asked her to come visit me because I desperately needed some company. Two days later, she made an easy excuse and decided not to come. Then a few days after that excuse, she found out she was pregnant and decided that she wanted to make the trip to visit because she needed a friend. Of course, feeling slighted and disregarded, I told her no because I didn’t feel it was fair to me (I’m always there when she needs me, no questions asked and hardly ever ask anything in return. But I also felt it was just too much for me to bear and I didn’t want to have to put my grief to the side to help assist her deal with another difficult situation she put herself in). She’s contacted me for help since then and it’s just more of the inconsideration that I receive; however, even though I’m hurt and upset with her, I still try to be a good friend to her while remaining distant. She has a baby shower coming up and I’m having a hard time deciding whether I should be a good friend and send her a gift despite the fact that I don’t feel she deserves my friendship at the moment. I feel really bad but I feel really hurt by her at the same time, and I’m not sure what to do. I don’t want God to be angry with me for not sending her anything but I feel I have been so disregarded by my friend.

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